And as I was wogging I wanted so badly to pray, but realized I didn't know where to start because I was feeling so overwhelmed by everything there is to pray about. I also felt somehow distanced from God this morning, like when I began to pray it felt like I was talking to myself, or talking to the air.. and I try to avoid doing things that make me look insane, because people already think I'm crazy as it is.
But even in feeling that way I knew that prayer really was what I needed to do most, because I can't do life without Jesus, especially when I'm overwhelmed.
So I did what I recommend to my friends who are new at praying to Jesus- I talked to Him like I would talk to a friend. I think I started by saying, "I don't know where to start..."
But after a few minutes the prayers started to flow, and thankfully so did the peace of Christ. After I got home from my "wog" (haha I'm loving that term) I decided to open the Bible and read only the words of Jesus from the book of Luke. In my Bible they are red, yes I wish they were pink, but at least being red they stood out on the pages. I did this because while wogging I realized that part of my stress is coming from the expectations that I think people have of me. Even expectations I have of myself. And since I know life is short and ultimately I am accountable to Jesus, over everyone else, I wanted to be reminded of what He has to say.
So I started reading His words from Luke out loud to myself. Now at this point I realize I looked a bit crazy, but I was home alone, so there was room to do it. :) I decided to read aloud for five minutes.
What did I learn?
To be honest I wanted to dance or sing or run around in circles because I was so relieved by what I read. My five minutes turned into fifteen minutes and it was so worth it! Jesus thinks SO differently than I do. His desires for us are so good, and His priorities are NOT the priorities of the world! Yes!
The last words I read are from Luke 8:54, "Little girl, arise."
So I did.
I arose from my chair, thought about how that line would make a great tattoo, then ran upstairs to start curling my hair.
When we encounter the truth of Jesus, and the authority that He has over the whole universe, everything else feels smaller in comparison. My time in prayer and in reading His words renewed my strength to face the days ahead. Starting with today. I still have a lot to think about, and plenty of issues that are yet to be dealt with, but I know now with my whole heart that though those issues are big to me, they are only minor details to God. And as I trust in Him, He will be faithful to sort them all out.
|"Little girl, arise." Luke 8:54|
"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you." Phil. 4:4-9